Leanldro, I do not know or understand what has happened in your life but Jesus does. Jesus wants you to be faithful and forgive others and yourself as He forgave you. Manners and education give us a sense of purpose and self-esteem. Jesus wants you to feel worthy. Give your cares to Him and He will direct your path. Keep vigilant, He may send someone to help, He may send an article, book, Sunday school class, look and listen and seek and trust him. Your request is honest, wait, wait for the Lord. Amen
Leandro69, I am praying for you
Leandro69, I pray that your good manners and educated style returns to you. In the name of the Creator, this is done. Amen.