John47, I am praying for you for strength and healing as well as liberation from addiction in Jesus's Holy Name!
John, join a a Bible-Preaching Church. Then when you find the Right Church For You - Join the Men's Group. - The other parts of your needs will be fulfiiled if you make it your mission to activily work on the first two! In the Name above all other names. God speed my friend! Amen.
John47, I am praying for you