If you are struggling with grief and depression, meditate on Bible verses about that. Look up Bible verses about grief and depression. I have been doing that. It has really helped me. You can find good Bible verse playlists on Youtube. You can also find Bible verse playlists on Youtube about God's love for you.
There are three things a Christian needs to do, in order to be blessed in their finances. The first is tithing. The second is giving offerings. The third is living within a budget. Several Christian pastors have done teachings on this. Look up Robert Morris and Rick Warren.
Have you tried any of the following? Ayurveda. Traditional Chinese medicine. Naturopathy. Integrative medicine. These four branches of health sure helped me. Some medical doctors (M.D.s) practice integrative medicine. You can find one on IFM.org Good luck