Ajs21, I am praying for you and your family
I am Praying with you.
I know how you feel. I am going through some financial problems too. Let me tell you how to get out of it. You need to be doing three things as a Christian. The first is tithing. The second is giving offerings. The third is living within a budget. There is more than one Christian pastor who has done a teaching on this. Look up Robert Morris or Rick Warren.