Thank you for praying for me. I actually work at school, I’m a teacher. I know there’s many millions of people who have it worse off. I feel for them! I pray the Lord will support us all! All of us struggle each in their own way. I think I have ptsd from several traumas I went through over the last 20 years or so and I think it’s stunted my life. I was on such a great path, even graduating with honors from college in the middle of two of these traumas, but it’s like they just never end. The most recent being lied to by my ex about him actually being married unbeknownst to me and then finding a video of him actually cheating on me with another woman and all the millions of other lies and alcohol problems. All the while he is saying he wants me to help him be a better Christian and stop drinking and make our relationship last forever and have kids. It’s a total mind game when you realize your reality wasn’t real. You were played. And now nothing you planned on will be and it can’t be fixed (and shouldn’t) and now you’re left alone to grieve. Right now I’m struggling to do anything once I get home from work, I feel all used up. Tonight I watched a self help video about ptsd and how it creates avoidance from an online therapist, which was information and helpful, but not useful as a treatment as that is ongoing one on one with a counselor. I pray I can dig into more than a few verses at a time like I used to, but my mind is very heavy and slow. Thank you for your prayers and advice! I wish you the best of luck as well! May the Lord have mercy on us!
Holy cow Stephanie, you need to start meditating on God‘s word. I went through a period like that in my life when I thought that things would never get better. They can, but you need to start making time for God’s word daily. Do a topic study in the Bible about depression, anxiety, and God’s love and promises in the situation. That is what you need in order to get through this. I promise that it works, but you need to make time to listen to it daily. If it’s any consolation, I wish that I had work and school. I don’t even have either one of those things in my life. I’m not trying to minimize what you are going through, but at least you have that much. There is always someone worse off than you.
StephanieUSA, I am praying for you