Valentine’s Day is going to be very painful and spring break would have been our 1 year anniversary. I feel so crushed and it feels like my singleness will never permanently end. Every time I fall in love or even try dating it’s never right. It’s never forever. Why can’t I just meet the right man? Why does God not provide what I need? Why does He allow me to be isolated so badly. He could so easily provide a friend or could have broken us up just by growing apart. He didn’t have to let it end in extreme lying and betrayal. Oh Lord, I can’t comprehend why my life is like this.
It feels like a great weight on my heart. Sometimes it feels even hard to breathe and my heart itself is in pain. It’s a true broken heart. Physically and emotionally. Please God have mercy on me.